Friday, January 2, 2015
Starting Back At Square One... Again
One of the most difficult things that I experience whenever I move somewhere is not knowing anyone. I've moved around enough times to be okay with it but sometimes it still sucks. Tonight, I came to the realization that a friend that I hangout with quite often is still very much a stranger. I don't really know about their struggles or how they feel about... things. Then I realized that this is true for everyone I socialize with. I don't really know anyone, and no one really knows me.
This Incredible Journey is a roller coaster complete with it's own ups and downs. But it's not a "bad" experience. It's just not the easiest.
I actually hate making new friends. I hate trying to get to know people. That sounds awful, I know, but the reason I feel this way is because I like already being in tight friendships and talking about serious topics. I hate small talk. I always have. I like to really know people, and have real relationships, and talk about real things. But how could I ever grow socially if I didn't put myself in these uncomfortable situations where I have to take a leap and ask people, "Hey would you like to hang sometime?" or "Let's catch a movie." The fact is that it doesn't matter if I don't like it. In order to grow, and to survive, I need to do it. Which means that I'll get hurt, and get happy, and get everything else in between.
Here's to a new year. Here's to new beginnings and new friendships.
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Such a great post TJ. So encouraging and true! I'm proud of you!
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