Last night, or rather very early this morning around 6am, I decided to take pictures of my nose and send it to a few plastic surgery clinics for online consultation. And today I got this email back. It's exactly what I was wanting from the consultation, but at the same time I have so many mixed emotions about changing my nose.
On one hand, I've been wanting to do this for most of my life and everything is falling into place for me to do it. I have the funds. I have friends who will take care of me for 2 days of recovery. I have the time that I need to recover before going back to work. There is nothing holding me back but myself.
On the other hand, I think about what I want the surgery for and what I want my new face to do for me and my career. It might seem ridiculous, but I think that getting a new face will help me get into the entertainment industry, but the fact is that I don't even want to be a star, I want to be a songwriter and a performer. You don't need a new face for that. What I do need in order to be that is to have connections and resources to become successful in the industry. What I need is the confidence and drive to pursue it even when everything doesn't line up.
It will make much more sense for me to be actually doing things in entertainment before I get the procedure, but then at the same time, what if a new face, backed up with natural talent, will help me become successful?
I keep hearing the familiar voice that tells me "You're not the type of person who gets plastic surgery. You're not rich, or beautiful. You don't have that type of background. You're just not that type of person." "You don't have the confidence or talent to do anything in music, so there's no reason to do this. Don't waste your time and money." "You think that changing your face will make you a better person? You think it will make people like you and accept you? Acceptance and liking comes from confidence, which you don't have. So don't even try."
I'm so afraid that if I do this and nothing happens with my music career, then I'll just be wasting mine and other peoples time and money. I'm afraid that I'll get the surgery and my life will still be the same. I'm afraid that I'll spend all that money and I'll still just be a music industry hopeful.
Good evening,
Thank you for your inquiry and interest in my clinic.
Also thank you for the photo attached.
Looking at the photo you sent, you have
deviated nose
hump
septal deviation
asymmetric nostril
columella deviation ( coming from septal deviation )
I think the procedures below may be necessary for your nasal reshaping.
open rhinoplasty
medial - lateral osteotomy
hump resection
tip-clumella plasty with cartilage graft
nostril plasty with ala reduction technique
I am not sure how would you like to have your nose changed by surgery, some of the procedures above are the indication.
I will let you know the best solution for your situation after I check you.
We are open six days a week except for Thursday from 11am to 7pm in Tokyo/Omtesando clinic.
Please let me know your availability to come in.
Please do not hesitate to ask me if you have any questions or need assistance.
I look forward to hearing from you.
Best regards,
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Hidemi Akai, M.D., PhD.
AKAI MEDICAL CLINIC
KNK bldg. 3F, 3-5-17 Kita-Aoyama,
Minato-ku, Tokyo, 107-0061,Japan
tel: (03) 5771-4114
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